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Monday, April 30, 2007

i link!
i link!
i link!

HOHO everyone is linked! yes :)
finally winnie, yining and zhiheng's link is correct!
nik is finally here! and odac! and eunice! YAY.
anyone is missed?
tell me, im in a linking mood today.

OH today we played TOUCH RUG!!!!
omg its damn funnnn... smtimes i love my class.
ahah.. uh oh. SOMETIMES ONLY LEH. haii sad, but true.
there are some ppl i dont like at all. OH WELLLL....
its been a long time since i last exerted myself like that...
now im achinggggg like nobody's business!
mr tan is really gd at touch rug hahah he's quite cool
oh oh fun fun.
free periods are not necessarily a waste of time. (not to mention FIVE HOURS OF IT hahahahah cool right sch was slaccckkk)
watch soccer. poor aj.. i wanted them to win!
during the match there was a tj boy whining about mud in his eye until the aj coach couldnt take it and went to dunno ask him what lah. then there was this another tj notorious disgusting big bully who shouted 'YOU WANT TO HIT ME AH! HIT LAH!'
=O
talk about manners!

i bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow

11:16 PM

Sunday, April 29, 2007

sometimes it takes a small, pleasant gesture to make people forget all that bad blood.
hahah funny isn't it, how life works?

BACH TO THE BEAT
i had like the greatest time at eunice's concert!!!!
OH MYYY there were oil coming out from my ears.
eee ok i just realise how sick that sounds. but you know, its a chinese saying. you know you know? ting chu er you. hahaha...
whatever. ok yes back to eunice's concert.
WOW!! it was damn entertaining.. the playing was good and the soloist were really amazing but the thing is, they dont only keep playing and playing.. they had this really lame and funny story line which kept audiences hyped and its so cool that the exciting parts of the story was coupled with the exciting songs. hahah..
and i especially liked the part where they trombonist(spelling?) ppl stationed all over the concert hall and played their thing. hahah.. it was nice nice nice! and the sax guy playing jazz! he's sooo funny hahahah... 'er sorry' ghahah!! im still laughing about it. they literally brought the performance to us. the time machine idea was really good too.
i'd say this is really original and not just the same sit-down-and-listen-till-it-ends thing.
AND EUNICE YOU WERE FANTASTIC!!! :)))))))
our cute trombonist :) hahahahah....
she's sooo cute she actually saw us you know! in the audience! yayyyy i know she was so happy to see us! haha ok she was quite embarassed i think. but haha she's so cute lah! when she looks at us then we'll wave wave wave! then she's be shy and look away. hahah so adorable.
everytime i see her thing pull up and down i'll feel so proud of her hahah oops. but really loh! esp the last part where the sections stood up individually!! arghhh eunice ah! you make us proud. ghahaha....

OK after that, wanted to be delinquents cum derelicts BUT there wasn't any time! and no good location. ohhhhh booze with celebs. i think its addictive! ever since that time at matong's house even tho we were drinking DOM. hahahaha.. eh thats damn alcoholic can... ayeeee i cant wait for friday. alcohol is not harmful when taken in moderation :)

5:15 PM

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

dunno if it works here.
but its amazing! wow optical illusion is seriously cool.

12:41 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

boo

today was a booringgg day.
irritated with someone in school like argh.

yes ok 20++ more essay outlines to do..
currently damn stressed out about econs! oh no :(
tml got test AD AS lehhh i dont know lah shitty.
I can only do market failure questions.
ahahah.. so useless.

hmm.. i miss night cycling.
now come to think of it, it all felt so surreal, just like every odac activity we ever had.
haha gunung ayam also!
oh man fun fun im gonna miss odac ppl alot when we step down.

9:17 PM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Man is the only animall that blushes. Or needs to.
Mark Twain.

ok mann haha i forgot to blog abt something.
you know that day after night cycling, i was feeling extremely horrible so i cabbed home and guess what, i think God sent me a message omg.
DIVINE INTERVENTION!
oh well... ok not really.. haha...
this cab driver was like telling me she has a daughter one year older then me and at J2 she didn't wanna listen to him and kept going for her cca.. and no uni wants to take her!!! omg he was like saying i shouldn't be doing this already and that i need to study harder...
what an apt message lah.. abit too coincidental lehh... dunno but its just that my parents have been harping about it non stop and im so stressed out by them. HAIII maybe i should just do what they want me to.
i felt as if someone from up above was trying to tell me something.
argh. im so torn.

today, delia and shuduan BOTH didn't come to school...
i felt so lonely the whole day.. oh no :(
i was even reduced to sitting with dexter alone during lunch?!
now you guys know how important you all are!
geog lecture i was like going for lecture alone.............
horrible terrible feeling.
i'm a person who needs her friends. haha..

Ok i have 30++ more essay outlines to go.
jia you!

9:10 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Its so funny.. i have 60 essay outlines to do by tml.
the only thing i can say is LOL!! (so untypical of me)

night cycling on hindsight, was pretty fun.
the fun part was so not the cycling part. hahah...
everything was going so slow and i kept thinking of the time our own odac went for night cycling oh man that is what i call physically challenging (refer to august 21 2006 entry :) ).
i was sooo fed up with the ppl cause they kept breaking and starting!
so i kept very far apart behind so i wouldnt have to break when they do! then that sheng jie ahh keep thinking i cannot make it already.. like WTH. dont underestimate me ok.. going at snail pace then still ask me whether im too tired. PLEASE LAH. i was quite pissed off (not at him lah) they weren't even keeping the 2 metre distance and everything so everyone kept emergencybreak-ing ARGH stupid.

towards the end i was sooo sian with this breaking and everything i was like scolding bad words behind by myself. hahahaha.. so funny now come to think of it. later on, i realised it was useless so i started singing.. energy, sun yanzi, blink 182.. hahaha.. entertaining myself loh! i even message while cycling cause i was SO BORED.

ok mannn enough of getting pissed.
the nice moments were aplenty too! like... erm.. getting to know shengjie better! hahaha... he is a nice guy.
and and! when every break we would go sit at the safety vehicle and crap crap and learn some malay words. hahahaha.... idelbede short. hahahahahah!!!! dunno the spelling lah. so damn funny lah!!! it means 'this is short' and jiang kiat was like pointing at aixin. SO FUNNY. then we kept using it for lame things. omg hahahaha... and oh! writing on masking tape and sticking it everywhere.. haha.. AND eating nutella and bread tgt with the rest... seeing kent fall asleep. hhaah he was like nodding off while sitting up.. funny!
alot of small small funny things.
COOL MEMORIES.
wish i recorded everything down :)
oh oh... And, sitting down as a group and bitching about the ny ppl.
they get down to push their bikes when on slopes. WHATTTT/ are they from odac or not.
hahah.. oh man i feel quite bad abt it now cause towards the end i realise the J2s of the ny ppl are quite nice lah.. esp the henry guy. aww i feel bad!
OH and the recee (how to spell!) before that was fun too! we sat on the banglah truck and took our route on car... because it was boring thats why it was fun! haha does that make sense? cause i was having alot of fun with the odac fellas doing lame stuff. esp with wei ge. hahahah.. kent lah.

and IM SO SORRY WEIXIANG. really lahhhh... REALLY!
not purposely one ok.. i didnt throw my bike at you it was an accident omg.
hahahah... and really lah i was just trying to poke you with my bike ok!
hahah... oh well. good luck with angeline. or wei qi.
hahah flirt lah this guy keep talking abt the ny girl with red shoes.
WEI QI CALLED ME BEFORE YOU OK.
haha..

hmmm.. then then oh! the only fun part during the cycling itself was when the 3 grps merged tgt at the end of the trip... kent nik and i were at the back.. bring the backmen of the 3 grps. that was funnn... we took up one whole lane.. hahaha... no car mah aiyoh.
then then funan joined us! that was when nik funan and i got lost.
hahaha then we were trying to ask for directions fomr that aunty across the road. we shouted and waved at her.. but she look at us then just look away?! like wth. ahahaha
haiii everything was great when i was with the odac ppl...
later on kent nik and i became Ultimate Backmen of the whole night cycling cohort. SO FUN hahaha...

did i mention that I SAW THE SUNRISE OVER ESPLANADE AND SINGAPORE RIVER/ omg :) i was cycling and taking pictures at the same time. so nice :) so pretty :) arghhh... i wanna go back :)

anw............ what else?
had breakfast with odac ppl
stupid zhiheng took my phone WTH... scare me half to death.

ok man i got my essay outlines waiting for me gtg already lah.
bye!

8:12 PM

Friday, April 20, 2007

at first i had the idea that love and lost are two very similar things.
then i think think think... i realised, actually they are extremely different.
they are of two contrasting identities that got tangled in a fight to get away from each other. although constantly trying to distance themself from the other, they are simply too deeply caught. there is no way to seperation.

only when there is love will there be lost.
Oscar Wilde once said that 'A man can be happy with any woman as long as he does not love her.' the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference. lack of emotion.

and doesn't the prospect of lost often spur us on in our efforts to love?

a parasitic vine that twirls a tree would finally kill it after sapping all of its nutrients.
lost might seem like that vine, but there is no lost without love, so it isn't right to say that lost kills love. right?

ahhh i was thinking and thinking about this on my way home.
my friend once told me
the worst kind of love is the kind where the person you love is right there, in front of you. yet, she/he does not know you love her/him.
i guess that applies to lost to.
haha... doesnt it?

OH WELL.
just a note..
this entry is more about lost then love.
you know, losing a friend has intangible cost... i don't know it yet but im sure i will in time to come. and i pretty certain it wont come with nice consequences.

9:37 PM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

a multitude of events happen in life.
but the important things are those not meant to be spoken of :)

im feeling the stress of alvls.
today, during econs i couldn't really catch mr chu's ball.
arhhh.. oh no oh no. stressed.
now i wanna sleep already, but i still got sooo many things to do!
supposed to meet this nyjc girl online at 9 for night cycling but she's not here! and i don't wanna be late so i cant go off and do my stuff.
arghh i feel bad about blogging! omg.
do i really have to start filling ALL my time with work?
oh no :(
there goes my life! bye bye life.

and oh i dunno how to do my econs tutorial!
i cant think of anything to write omg :/
its 12 marks and i wrote ONE PAGE! aiyoh!
how?? there's nothing to write........

hmm today smth funny happen
when we were going home, we went to look at the billard people, and we were standing outside but i dont think they knew we were there.. and we saw a boy DIGGING HIS NOSE. alot alot of times. eew eew eewwwwwwww.
its damn sick..... ok nvm. thank goodness i dont know the boy.
hahah.. thats joke of the day.

bye bye im gonna go plan the night cycling thing alr!

9:05 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

I shall make a conscious effort to stay at home from now on.

I'm afraid that would mean less time with friends etc etc.
now i'm worried about night cycling next week.
that, i can't miss. oh noooooooo :(
how to tell my mum and dad?
i hate this.

i suddenly rmb smth.
i rmb that during that olvls period we used to sing,
'wake me up when o levels end' hahahaha... omg!
SO FUNNY.
HAHA....we were such KIDS last time ok!

who said growing up was fun?
haha.. i miss sec 4 all over again.
wish studying for alvls would be as fun as studying for as mann...
eee.

wake me up when a levels end.

8:35 PM

Thursday, April 12, 2007

oh my goodnes i haven't signed my ptm form im so dead. and so scared. aiyoh how how how? later i wanna watch cao ge on tv somemore can?! im too much. haiii..

oh, just now i helped my dad catch frogs.
did i tell you guys how bitter i feel?
my dad bought a dragon fish that's 1003 bucks.
no, i didn't type an extra zero.
ONE THOUSAND AND THREE DOLLARS EXACTLY.
its a baby and its ard.. less than 15 cm....
arghhh and there they are, saying that they don't have enough money to bring me to uk.
wtf.
thats almost half of my uk trip ok......???
he's buying all sorts of vile things to feed it.
like extra big meal worms that is the size of my pinkie (im exaggerating fine but its really huge.) and yah, frogs lah. little frogs. just now he dropped the container and they were hopping all over the house!!!! it was kinda funny actually. they were jumping everywhere and i bet there are some we haven't caught. please pray nothing gets into my bed room thanks.

hmm.. oh i left my shoe bag in the bus. im sooo smart!
thats one set of pe shirt less. oh my i can't afford it!!!
i use alot of pe shirts everyweek :(

7:47 PM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

reading blog archives are like so revealing.
hahaha.. as in like oh mannn how people change!!!
i think its amazing how different ppl can be like just 3 years ago.

anw anw, did you know????
15% OF THE PEOPLE WHO GETS PARKINSONS ARE 18-40!!
omggg... and and 4 out of 5 ppl in singapore die of disease.
hahahaha sounds DAMN SCARY.
got this urge to run away from singapore now! now.
but no, i cant run away why?
cause i got lotsa hmwk.
hahahah.. ohhh hmwk, my fav things.
im currently not that worried about dying so yup, better start thinking about my lit and econs hmwk. and alvls, of course.
hahaha.. oh my i think im going mad.

im going out too much, until i can't stand myself anymore.
i haven't had a whole weekend to spend at home since 3948320 weeks
and im feeling real bad about it.
really baddd... until i dont dare to sign my results slip.
cause im going out AGAIN this sunday. and there's ptm also omg!

anw, i think lah.. im losing my passion for odac.
haii.. im damn sad. i really don't know why but for the first time since i joined odac im harbouring ideas of ponning. but i won't. really la i won't.
i was just feeling so ughhhh 'beautiful' (code name for erm smth else. haha.) during odac today i wanted to sprint home and start doing my econs. THATS HOW BORED I WAS.
im sorry.
i really can't help feeling like that arghh its just that some ppl in odac are showing some very unfamiliar behaviours that is irritating me and and and, now that napfa's over, i have no motivation to run anymore! none at all lah.
not anyone's fault lah. its all me. :(
haha im the only one feeling that way so yah loh. my bad.
maybe im just suffering form some kinda moodswing.
haiii maybe today was just too exhausting! not my fault lohhhh i ran in the morning, had napfa right after that, and then there's odac!
wish there were more fresh blood around to make my life more exciting.
J1S JOIN ODAC PLEASE!!! ITS FUN I SWEAR....!
we're going night cycling 2 weeks later eh i cant wait.
jhahah... ok maybe i should make tt my motivation to run.. so that i won't die during the expedition! got some nyjc ppl.. so cannot dui lian.

hmmm what else what else?
tell you all a secret, i secretly feel excited about sunday.
because im gonna go make fur balls! hohohooo...
and im doing charity! i love helping ppl that way :) makes me feel good.

9:26 PM

Saturday, April 07, 2007

jiayin is starting revision for O LEVELS ALREADY.
like.. okk is that the reason why i didn't do fantastically well?
hah if you're reading this, jia you woman! you can do it lah..
so hardworking omg!

ok anw, my main point is, she has started on olvls and i haven't started! and im taking alvls okkk wow im like so dead. haha i should wake up already.
START STUDYING YOU PIECE OF SHIT!
sdkopfn;sdofn
yo all my mates. start studying already mann!

oh oh i finally got down to reading my DoM. hahahaha its such a big fat joke cause i could hardly register what i was reading. as in.. aiyoh the old english is just killing me!
why can't they just be more straight forward???
let me give you an example.
instead of saying 'give me my freedom', prospero has to say 'As you from crimes would pardoned be,/ let your indulgence set me free.'
ok, so it sounds a thousand times more classy.
but im irritated now and am in no mood to appreciate the beauty of his words.
ohmanohman ok i immediately feel like a bad lit student.

8:37 PM

Friday, April 06, 2007

tell me, is the font too small?
personally i cant see much.
maybe its the colour.
but oohh this skin is not bad.

12:06 AM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

ohhhh supposed to save on my smsessss...
but couldn't resist 'bitching session' with shuduan.. haha!
at least she feels better and i feel much cheered that delia and i are not the only miserable souls who thinks that way. (delia guess what we were bitching about!)

ANW, I CUT MY HAIR!
oh, goodbye my lovely locks.
HAHAHAHA... sorry hahahahaha... LOVELY LOCKS.
hahahahahaha.... alliteration.
hahah... lovely my foot mannn.. couldn't stand all the hair going into my eyes anymore! hair is supposed to be on the head and not in the eye so yup, i finally cut it!
i look like a boy now, but i don't care.

hmmm im peeling leh.. why after such a long time?
ahh... and and energy's going on 933 tml! HOHO.
how cool is that i wonder what they'll be doing..

ohhh look at this,
aixin My dreams came true, when i found u my miracle... says:
ur teacher got give u the ptm consent form?
[comeON]- haha.. i think life is abigjoke. says:
not yet...
aixin My dreams came true, when i found u my miracle... says:
i tell u
[comeON]- haha.. i think life is abigjoke. says:
??
aixin My dreams came true, when i found u my miracle... says:
its CUSTOMISED
aixin My dreams came true, when i found u my miracle... says:
omg.
[comeON]- haha.. i think life is abigjoke. says:
huh!
aixin My dreams came true, when i found u my miracle... says:
ur grades are there
[comeON]- haha.. i think life is abigjoke. says:
OMG
[comeON]- haha.. i think life is abigjoke. says:
OMG
[comeON]- haha.. i think life is abigjoke. says:
OMG

suddenly, i feel that my nickname is very very apt.

tml im going to sentosa... when my parents asked me about my results, i told them... 'i sort of passed maths' which is not entirely untrue, to soften the impact so they'll allow me to go. haha.. oops... now i know they will see my results on the form i totally regret having said that. ARGH why did i????

aiyoh you know what, i rmb smth funny happened in school either today or yesterday.. and i said i will blog about it.. but now i dont rmb what! oh nooo i feel bad.
hmmm what is it???

oh i wanna change my blogskin!
really, i just put this cao ge one for fun lehhh...
i miss all my links. what shld i change it to? should i put it back to the old wicked one? or what or what?? i think i need to have more PASSION for my results. so maybe i should scan my colourful results slip and put as my blogskin lah.. ok no im jst crapping. i think then no one wanna come alr. ohhhh myyyyyy im so excited about tml suddenly im just rambling on, i know!

but hahaha eh i suddenly rmb!!!!
the funny think that happened in school was, that day, we went to the library to do lit research but liz and i went on an adventure instead! ok fine so it was an adventure online. but but but! i had alot of fun laughing about shi fei's blog ang shiying's locked entry. ahhaha... and i also had alot of funn staring at that SCREEN FULL OF WORDS about the jacobean era. omg matong aixin jen i feel your pain about doing duchess nowww cause im doing it too ):
liz, when are we gonna do the ppt? im sure we'll have the most joyful time gg to revisit that page of shitty words in which we were falling asleep trying to read!

ok, im finally done!
i know today's post is like... er messy lah.
now im gonna read 33productions.. ahh i miss leonard!
aww he's a sweet boy.

10:16 PM

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

haiii im so not encouraged.
ok discouraged
ok.. whatever

do i tweak my studying method?
ok la im not even studying tweak what shit!
haiii need to prioritise.. but its not like i don't know whats important! i just pretend i still have alot of time. omgggg... ng liting you better wake up soon if not you'll screw your alvls like this stupid block test.
how how how???
im know i'm not in the worst situation but arghhh im still entitled to worry right? everything is like s s s s s . whatever man... can you imagine that on your alvl cert?! arghhh..... i dont know what to think.

today we got back alot alot of papers all at one go... i think i'm numb alr. damn i need to wake up larhhhhhhh. like mr chow said, we need to be more passionate about our results. im supposed to FEEL SOMETHING.
but i dont.
oh.
great.
im not being 'cool'... im just... so used to failing that im like quite apathetic to whatever i get already.. just afraid of my parents. damn it. damn damn damn.....
what to do to improve???
there seems so so so much to rmb ! all the content!
all the stupid quotes from critics, the literary terms, the poem structure.. all the statistics of the countries, what happened during earthquakes, eruptions, floods, LEDCS, MEDC, br, dr,life exp, imr, gdp, etc etc etc.
freak.

did you now there's no such word as angsty?
only angst.
dunno who tell me one...

did you know africa is splitting up into two?
ahaha... its called the african rift valley how cool is that?
hoho... phy geog is fun i love phy geog.

9:07 PM

Monday, April 02, 2007

when do you know you have lost a friend?

when she fades into the buzz of her own life?
when she stops telling you things she used to?
what about when you realise you guys are of different worlds?
being different doesn't mean losing each other. i guess more effort would have to be put in to maintain the relationship.. i mean if others can do it why can't i?
does being busy write off as a good excuse if it just leads us onto a slippery slope down to nothing?
i don't know if thinking about the old times work anymore, because we can't just keep falling back on the past to pretend that we still even know each other. it just wouldn't work, not when the past stays the past while we lose ourselves in the present.

how do you reciprocate friendship?
how do you persuade yourself that you are still important to your friends?
how do you get to know this kind of things?

if it comes with experience,
then how come the more i think i know the more i realise i don't?

8:58 PM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

today is april fools'!!!
im quite sad that matong and i have nothing planned for you guys like we had last year AND the year before. hahaha.. it was hilarious seriously!
oh well, maybe next year then.

arghhh and the reason for that is i got so damn much hmwk.
bloody shit... its like 'unfinishable'.
ok ANW,

haha.. FRIDAY:
went to sushi!!!
ahhhh oh myyyy... hahah i was sooo full i couldn't walk straight.
played games and force fed ourselves... heaven.
hahaha hi johnny! yes johnny? go tell johnny!
so fun so fun! that amanda lah.. she kept saying 'hello johnny' then she will 'huh?'
hahahahhaah... i think we were drunk on sushi..

TITOUDAO!!! omg it was really really good... like wow!
i think all those vulgarities were so.. classy.
haha.. as in really never expected all those explicit content hahah.. colourful language. everything you can think of, they have man... ok at least anything i can think of lah. but it was funny.. there was even a part when the girl mouthed 'chi bai' (OMG I FEEL SO DISGUSTED SAYING THIS) but the effect turned out really well.. not uncouth or anything.
2 thumbs up! (ill give more if i had more)
hmm.. i think they were damn professional.. got me fooled with their singlish... i later on realise that they were supposed to speak like that. wah.. really.. it was a great experience to watch these people.
singapore productions are too under rated!!!!!

saturday:
CELEBS!!! awww man it was great to see you ppl again...
yanhong couldnt come for some reason..
hey woman i hope everything will go fine ok?
no matter what it is we will be there!! no doubt abt that :)
anyway, we went ny ny!
please everyone should go eat there.. its really good food!
hmmm... we talked and laughed and everything.
complained to each other arghh so nice leh!!

wah i realise i turn very brown.
oh thenthenthen!!! we had birthday surprise!!!
CHOCOLATE FONDUE. like wthhhhh i feel damn fat now..

our celebs pose with all our birthday surprises.
it was very funny... jen and matong were pretending tt they were going for cotton candy.. then they came back but without the fondue (i was so confused)... then later on 'cotton candy' sort of became the code name.. ahh celebs what would life be like without you guys??

later on... went to esplanade.. walked to the merlion... was looking for 7-11 so we could get drunk but arghh couldn't find any.. damn sad.
it was nice lah.. found some spotlight and sat there to talk... haha... eh you all promised huh, when i turn 18 we go back there to go drunk. ok ok?
hoho i can't wait... ok no la joking. haiii when my birthday comes everyone will be having prelims.. or mid years... or smth. ehh sucks leh.
anw, we must get drunk someday but not at matong's house drinking her dom... HAHA. dom is like such an old man drink. ok yes, anw, went home at ard 1130..
next friday.. sentosa!!!
whoohoo.

i seriously dont feel like im taking alvls this year :(

11:48 AM